عید.......... تون مبارک....

Some hours left till we reach the hour, when and where the earth finishes (!) its 365-day journey around sun ,and earth won’t wait for us…..in a cruel harsh way, it’ll start the new journey without a second of delay…..

دارد عید میشود، هوا شبیه عید نیست، ادمها هم نیستند، نمیدانم چرا تا چند سال پیش، وقتی‌ بچه تر بودم این مفاهیم خیلی‌ واقعی‌ بودند، هوا همیشه شبیه عید بود حتا اگر برف میبارید.........

… اما این سالها، سالهایی که حس آدم بزرگ بودن تک تک سلولهایم را آزار میدهد، سالهایی که هر چه فکر می‌کنم عیدهای قبلی‌ را یادم نمیاید، سالهایی که ذوق پوشیدن لباس نو، ذوق عیدی گرفتن، ذوق عید دیدنی‌رفتن فراموش شده

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خدایا، حالا که مبدأ ۳۶۵ روز ما _ که کاش نمی‌دانستم چقدر قراردادی است_ امشب است .... ۳۶۵ روز بعدی همهٔ ادمها رو شاد، سالم، پر از خوشبختی‌ قرار بده......

آیه ۴۱ سورهٔ روم: ظهر الفساد فی‌ البر و البحر بما کسبت آیدی النّاس لیذیقهم بعض الذی عملوا لعلهم یرجعون

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People are selfish, no matter what they say.. no matter what they claim, no matter if they’re not people either…. Now I believe you shouldn’t ever trust anyone… you should never come to think somebody’s going to help you out of this… this search’s of no avail….just believe ….no matter what they claim… they’re absolute human-beings like you…. All of them with no exception….I always make the same mistake of confiding in creatures like myself… and I sometimes forget all the results I came to before…. This is the reason of stupid repeating of my mistakes…… I’m angry of myself just… you can’t fault people … they’re passing their normal life and they never come to think their simple stupid reactions, behaviors and so on will do what to others…. I’m absolutely one of those very people… today again in equation class I was thinking that if people can’t live with each other…. If they mean to hurt each other… if even unconsciously they hurt each other…… why did god make so many people? I could absolutely wait to come to the world later but with so fewer people _ but good ones_....... I thought god didn’t want us to get hurt… even with each other’s guns and knives…. So I thought there might be a way… there might be someone not hurting you… I don’t want to be hopeful though…. I’ve had enough of hopes turning into absolute despair…..